Pondering the flow of life on this stuffy summer day…. as Moby spins in the background.
I miss blogging - so many things come to mind to write and explore… always at inopportune times it seems… but the truth is it probably wouldn’t matter… I don’t make the time or take the opportunities. Even Facebook takes effort. Twitter is the path of least resistance now.
Makes me wonder if somewhere out there there are mystics missing my voice like I miss some of theirs. Michelle Cuthbertson, Graffiti61, Nicolas Nelson, Mixed Moss… just to name a few. Some are silent. Maybe their “Blog Fatigue” became permanent like mine did. Some I think must be vocal somewhere and I have just lost the URL or they have a different one now.
On days like this I also think of things attempted and failed. Worse, the thought of trying again now brings vision, creativity, excitment! Those ships have long since sailed, haven’t they? Why resurrect now long after the opportunity has been missed, lost, squandered? Where did that come from!?! Scarier - What does that mean?!? I think - nope I know - that I preferred the damage and fear that usually accompanies rehashing those memories. Sick but safe.
And now Green Day is taunting through my speakers: “I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies…”
It can be deafening when you choose to listen to everything in your environment… unsettling to realize it’s all speaking to you all the time.
~nooc
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November 9, 2008 at 2:08 pm
Parepidemos
Hey nooc,
Yes, there’s some blog fatigue over here. And I empathize with the rest of this post too. I’m starting something new right now and find myself alternating between hope and fear and despair and elation. That’s not normal for me! I hope as the process really starts rolling, I will lose myself in the work and put doubts and fears aside.
But there are other reasons you haven’t seen much activity on my blog in the past year, and I hope those will clear up soon. Then a whole lot of private posts will suddenly become visible.
Hang in there, greg!
Grace and strength to you.