Yesterday was June 1st. That was a bit of a wake up for me.
You see my 6 month term as Urban Missionary ends June 30th. I haven’t been giving that little fact any headspace because I’ve been so immersed in the ministry…. after all at least it’s not June yet.
But now it’s June.
And the headspace has carved itself out in a corner of my mind. So the praying and pondering and seeking begins afresh. The adventure renews. Faith and fear, trust and terror, assurance and uncertainty get reaquainted. Ideally I want to find a way to continue the ministry I’m currently doing…we’ve come far and accomplished much and laid so much groundwork that I want to build upon…. but I know I have to hold it loosely.
All I know for sure is that I can’t go back to ordinary… I can’t go back to mediocrity. I am still a happy casualty of the influence of this mystic community.
That doesn’t mean I won’t consider a regular job… but it would have to be strategic… temporary… a means to an end.
So Lord… what shall we do next?
nooc
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June 2, 2006 at 10:54 am
Parke
I pray God will show you your next step in a timely fashion - even if it is one without clear destination. I’ve seen much good come from a moment like that myself.
And do remember, as I know you will, that the epic and amazing is often lived out in the same place as the mundane and normal. It’s how life is lived and our connection to someone higher than transforms all these crumbling places.
June 2, 2006 at 1:59 pm
bricksmom
ahh if only you were in my head. oh wait a minute, it sounds like you are! I am remembering you and Sherry in prayer. I am keenly aware of the challenge you face.
I think Todd used a quote once “faith is stepping out when failure is imminent unless God intervenes”…well some people think you only need to do that one time…guess what…some of us are called to that over and over and over (and over and over). I like to believe that makes us Kingdom changers, but even in that, when there is no evidence of Kingdom Change, I have to just believe….
V.
June 6, 2006 at 11:36 am
nozza
Bro,
Praying that God will turn up soon and make it clear what the next step is…but until then keep acting on the desires in your heart and making time for God to shape them. Sometimes our heart can be the best place to look for what God is trying to tell us.
I look forward to hearing what God will speak.
Live dangerously dude.
Noz
June 7, 2006 at 1:48 pm
Mixed Moss
“Happy casualty,” I really like that.
I’ll be praying for you to stay dead, whatever the future may bring. May we all become deader.
-Mel
June 7, 2006 at 4:04 pm
nooc
Thanks for the prayers all! Thanks Mel…. “”deader the bedder”
nooc
June 8, 2006 at 6:55 am
mixedmoss
Can we get a t-shirt that says that? On the front it could say “happy casualty” and on the back “the deader the better” or something.
I’m working on the recording. My roommate’s boyfriend is super at all this tech stuff. I’m clueless. What kind of file do you want? mp3? What size can it be and still be emailed to you?
-Mel
June 8, 2006 at 11:14 am
nooc
yeah Mel that would make an awesome t-shirt! or tat!
sent you an email about the recording.
nooc
June 19, 2006 at 12:33 pm
mixedmoss
How is this shaping up? Any directions you’re looking at?
-Mel